What I am feeling right now is a sense of being alone. Hence thought of writing in the diary.
I have often wondered what type of a personality I am to have so much of confliting emotions.
Is it because I feel people including my parents are not accepting me the way I am. Many a times I have wondered why I don't feel to do household chores. It is not because I am lazy though ppl feel it that way.To be frank I just can't do anything after 10 hrs in office. Yes I am a star performer in office and I do take lot of pressure to achieve that.I feel very tired after office hrs.Even on weekends I hate to enter kitchen and want to sleep always. But somehow I feel it is admissible for a man to feel it that way. But not for a woman. Many a times I have felt the burden of being a woman is too much. Well you are supposed to behave in only one fashion. You cannot be arrogant, reply back or opinionated. Why??? I feel like shouting over the top. I feel like I want to live a life of human being. Being myself.
I don't want people to raise fingers at me for what they call behaving like a man.
True I cannot stand or tolerate hypocrisy. True I don't want to sacrifice my life and earn a good name. But then I don't know what to do.
I really feel lonely today. I hope atleast the daughters of next generation have a better say on their lives than I have on myself.
