Each individual has a writer in him/her. Everyone has a story to write that can be a bestseller.
She was born in a lower middle-class family. Her parents were married at a very early age and were struggling to somehow manage the daily family expenses. She had an elder sister, who was kept at her granny's place because the parents could not afford the space or money for two kids at the same time. Her sister was barely 5 years elder to her. None of her relatives had an educational background. Since she was an aggressive child and nobody liked her, her parents and immense faith in God were her only support, .
She was born to be fighter. She never played with toys in her childhood. A complete problem-child with very good grasping power, she could pit-pat anything very quickly. The first big day of her life: her mother bathed her, made her look tidy, and dressed her in a new frock for an interview in the city's biggest school. She was sitting all alone with the interviewer and was answering everything confidently. The interviewer gets surprised how she could talk so well, when nobody in her family could even talk a word in English. And hell yeah, she clears the interview.
Earlier, she had no goals set. All she knew was that she had to make her mother proud some day. In few months, she was blessed with a brother who was her only friend and companion. Though she was a violent child, she was very careful around him. While she was in her 1st grade, her father had to relocate to a gulf country for a job. Now, it was only her mother, brother, and her. In her 7th grade, her sister came to stay with them as well. She couldn't go along well with her sister and would land up beating her up or constantly play pranks on her.
She was regular to school and loved the tall buildings and gardens. She was attentive and a quick-learner. As soon as the bell would ring, she would run for her life to catch the swing and keep swinging. She used to dominate and scare all the children around her, so had very few friends. But, she was loved by all her teachers because of her hard-work and being meritorious. She would come back home from school and narrate everything to her mom about the sequence of incidents that took place during the day. Her mother would patiently listen to everything while she continued to stitch clothes.
Though her communication skills were horrible, she never shied-away from talking. Her companions would make fun of her and her reflexes would make her immediately bash them up. Gradually she bent more towards playing and her scores went down considerably. This was the first time that she broke, when she realized how much she hated to be nothing but the best. But in few days, she gathered herself and started to work really hard and got her life on track. In her final grade at school, she was the 2nd topper in the merit list. For a moment, she thought that her struggle is over, but what was it that made her worried. Well, she realized that the struggle has just started.
She got admission in one of the best college in the city. Just like other students, she too wanted to join coaching classes, but unfortunately her parents could not afford it. So, she learned all by herself and still managed to set a rank in the merit list. She had a knack of learning the thinking patterns of criminals, so she aspired to become a crime journalist. But this was a complete NO-NO from her family. So she pursued her career in another stream.
She came across a guy, her neighbor, who was rich, good-looking, and came from a very respectful family. This guy thought that she was a poor illiterate girl. And one day he approached her just to realize that she was a very intelligent and strong girl. So, this guy went all gaga and what more, he fell in love with her and kept asking her out. But she kept denying for almost a year. How long could she have denied? When it gets to male ego, men can go beyond any extent to get what they want. This guy had an ego too, but he genuinely loved her as well. So now, the love story begins.
Life looked so beautiful and promising to her, but over time, she started to skip her studies and performed extremely poorly in her academics. This made her restless. This was the second time she broke down. The guy got very possessive and violent, so much so that she was even scared to step out of the house. But she approached for legal help and sorted this mess. Again an example of how she did not give up.
Her friends had left and she was all by herself, where again she found a companion who gave her a rosy picture and made promises, but turned out to be a jerk eventually. This was her final year of college and she somehow scraped through with passing marks. She isolated herself from everyone after this third fall, but got up again.
She managed to find a decent job, but always had the guilt of being crazy and troubling her mom. Life had just started to get on track and a very old friend came from nowhere and there started the 3rd love story. Sounds funny, doesn't it?
By now she had a hell lotsa experience but still jumped into the well. She was madly in love with this guy. He was a nice person, but had a very messed-up family. He was all good in the beginning, more of an idealist. But, the thorns started to prick with time, he was another jerk who would try his best to smash her confidence. She held on and tolerated everything. She lost control of herself and was only dancing to his tune.
And one day she suddenly realized that she is a nobody, what she wanted to be and where she actually is, how badly she was treated by all of the people whom she gave importance. This was too serious. And she was just about to give up on everything and kill herself.
But then, someone reminded her of what she used to be- a person who would beat the s out of everyone, not take anybody's crap, and full of life and confidence. She geared up once again and started afresh. And now even if she doesn't know what she really wants, she knows exactly what she doesn't want.
What I want to convey through my blog is how terrible life can become when one doesn't put him/herself before others (I am not saying that altruism is bad, but it should not tax your stability), when one is not spiritual, when one starts to become dependent, when one starts to have expectations, when one trusts blindly and gives control to others, or when one does not stand up for what is right at the right time. So many youngsters think of committing suicide and ending their lives for something that was not even worth it. There is so much more to life.
There is always someone waiting for you at home, it could be parents, friends, kith and kins, grandparents, or friends. Before trying such heinous stunt, just think how your loved-ones would break when they would realize that they couldn't save you, does your best friend, who is awaiting to celebrate with you on his/her birthday, deserves to be stranded, what example you are setting for your siblings, have you really lived or just suffered?? There will be many ups and downs in life, but just remember that before the brightest morning, there has to be a dark sunset.
To reach a port, one must sail; not tie to an anchor- sail, not drift.
