Hi msians, It’s been a long time but you guys know that leaving this site is hard so I came back to tell so someone out here can hear whatever I have to say, I miss my father a lot and feel insecure without him. I miss Nainital a lot, those beautiful mountains and lively people around, the huge pond high up the hills. Oh! those nights there like Diwali glittering in the pond was like heaven… I ‘am far from it now. God knows when I will see it again? My life is like a secret agent now, working in a BPO in Gwalior and residing in Jhansi means I got to see new people everyday whom I will never see again. It’s tiring and hectic but living away from my family is not possible now. I don’t know what has happened to me and my destiny, looks like somebody has cast a spell on me and my guide…Destiny. It has gone haywire but I ‘am hanging on tight bcuz time changes everything, believe me, it does. Your BBB has become more diplomatic and persuasive now. I remember that I used to be a happy- go-lucky type but now there is a black cloud hovering around me and it can rain at any time but still I won’t give up. My life have been a sweet nightmare all through my childhood, my Father’s leg amputation, my pet’s sudden death which was very traumatic at that time and still wets my eyes remembering her, a daughter I lost bcuz I wasn’t paying attention, her death was my fault, I accuse myself for her death. I was a teenager when my Father became a amputee. Love gave me lots of pain too but I still remember them all of them when I’am drunk or sitting alone. I loved them from the bottom of my heart so it were like thousand knives through my heart whenever it broke. I also feel so sorry for my Father who went through such excruciating pain and died seven years later . Little May is doing fine and the new arrival of Rokky is like a angel of my life, I love him. He makes me live this life. Dogs know the real meaning of love, don’t they? I started smoking due to stress and it did helped me a lot in the initial step but now I want to get rid of this, it messes my mind even further. Good food and Exercise should cure me, but I think I’am smarter then before bcuz of it. Anything done in abundance is a curse. I remember my fights with Sonia di @cattie makes me sentimental, I rejoice being heard crying for a girl by Mathur saab @jmathur I’am struggling with life,with career, with people and just about everything so I just wanted all out that’s why I came here to tell my tale. I’ll be back
Regards
Siddhartth
