I am not happy leaving Nainital behind, The place where I lived three years of my precious life and that too with the best of nature , Green mountains, clean rivers and reasonably friendly people. I miss the time when I used to wake up in morning to see the sun rise and go out for some fat burning activities , I miss everything, just about everything. Being in a very stressed state I am unable to make new contacts and a decent job for myself. I did went to Jaipur only to see how dry this place is and the gentry even drier . The water and the place to stay , which was hired by my so called brother was pathetic, I went into deeper seclusion , away from the outside world for a while, as I was quite proud to tell my Mother what a mistake I have done coming here to Jaipur, I tried my best to stay in jaipur but having some arguments and nearly getting into trouble again ( What I didn't knew was people hate Rajputs here ) I decided to leave Jaipur as well as my relatives were taking full advantage of my liberal attitude using my Money , My car , My bike and my time without any clue how to get out of the city full of criminals and Narrow minded people (they just don't get it how I can be a Hindu/Christian ?).
I started thinking going to my Mother and Family In Jammu , and thus I saw a ray of hope in my already messed up life. On 4th of April I Loaded my car and off I went to Jammu hoping to have a good support from my Family . May was with me all along the journey, She was also was there in Jaipur I used to lock her in the room so that I could do more with the Property Business only to find it disgusting, Unscrupulous way of EARNING and lots of filthy people to talk to...couldn't accept it
But my brother of Sixty has a addiction to his criminal friends all over the city. I used to spend a lot everyday only to see customers getting out of hands when I least expected . Any ways My MAY was the only sole buddy with whom I used to go for long walks ,day and night after the meal. I miss one thing in About Jaipur , the oh so posh multiplexes , I still love Movies !
The journey was OK and adventurous and was very secure regarding the fact the headlights were not working in the night and the by passers did gave me lots of amusing smiles ! May be they thought I was brave enough to do that but I was impatiently hoping to Reach Home as soon as possible. When I reached LAKHANPUR BORDER I was in ecstasy ''home only 100 km away in Channi Himmat''. Then again I did again travelled without lights following others vehicles and there Enlightening beams. When finally I reached my destination , I looked at the Home And it was so intimidating as a palace , I was so relieved that after living in room for two months that I finally came at the right place . Getting lost in Delhi and then getting on the right road was an another Achievement for me and so was getting May to a better home where she wont be locked all day because daddy has to go earning.
Me and my sister fight everyday and then again I think that I did a terrible mistake coming here too , She was about to to Lucknow after a massive fight with me , I didn't wanted to let go of my only sibling after loosing so many friends in real life and the virtual too, I somehow changed her decision to go by treating her with a cadburys . She is a child at heart ,innocent and temperamental ''Maan gayi bechari bachi''. And today after so many days, a month to be precise , I think I am going to stay in Jammu as my Mother needs me , She needed me badly in 2009-2010-2011 but I hated Jammu and the people so never came here but as I feel utterly ''LONELY'', I came here finally . May be she thinks how selfish I am but I guess we all make mistakes and I wanted her to come to Nainital Every time. ''Dil ka haal sune dil waala''.
What really is making me change my places again and again, getting into fights and having no mental peace . The reason became obvious as I went to a pundit ji for jyotish problems that could had made a huge impact in my life. The reason was obvious, my life has been into the hands of ''Shani ke sade saati'' Since 15 November 2011. And all the accidents,loss of money , arguments and change of places occurred due to this famous phenomenon that happens in everybody's life . Everything what ever the old Pundit told me had already happened and told me to control my temper and be very reasonable , visiting Shiv Temple and Shani would definitely change my life for the better . Loosing so many msians friends like Saurabh , Vanita and so many was one of them, being the most infamous msian I declare everything will be in control soon and I am still alive. Astrology helped in past and its also making me reconsider my life and have a better mind set. Hope this affect goes out of my life as soon as possible and all my beloved friends and well wishers come dashing to me. Thanks for reading and visiting. God bless you all !
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