How Do I Deal With Cancer?. Review on Dealing with Cancer

When I first found out that I had Cancer it was a very tough road. I have been going on two years now. I have my moments just like everyone else. I remember the first time I left the doctors office. My husband and kids picked me up. No one even thought to ask how my appointment went. I was ready to forget the news I had just received. No one would ever have thought that I would have been cursed with C-A-N-C-E-R! I guess I was a bit quiet.

Then my hubby asked how the appointment went. I was in tears, because at that very moment it was the hardest thing I ever had to tell my family. At that time I did not know how to be strong. I thought that I was given a life sentence.

I managed to muddle out what happened in between supping and crying. We were all in shock. Dealing with Cancer has not been a picnic for us at all. Between losing my job, radiation treatments, little income, not being able to walk, and a repeat bout of Cancer spreading, my life has been so difficult. In my experience I have had to fight for my life every step of the way. Between the shady health insurance, fighting for disability, and arguing with doctors, I have had little pleasure in my life over the past two years. How Do I Deal With It? That is really a quite strange question.

I suppose I would have to say that I would have a different answer that will vary with each day. Some days, I am depressed, and I choose to feel sorry for myself. Other days, I can see that light at the end of a dark road. I suppose friends and family make a huge impact on me. Religion, and church helps me a great deal. Being around people who are positive, and that are in my situation really makes a difference. No matter how much your family tries to help, if they have not been in your shoes, sometimes it is difficult.

I remember my preacher giving a sermon one Sunday. I swear he must have been talking right to me. He had said that we all have a death sentence. Just because one has Cancer, or whatever, doesn't mean that we were specifically chosen for this death sentence. He said that we all have a death sentence. Look how fast time passes us by. I mean look in the mirror. We are all slowly falling apart. We have all been given a death sentence. We are ALL going to die. He is right. I am not a religious freak and do not want to push my beliefs on anyone, but I am going to tell you how I DEAL with the Cancer. I choose to believe in my religion.

No matter whether you have a belief or not, we can all agree that life is short, and we are all going to die. I needed to hear that. I needed to know that I was not just being picked on by some cruel person. I believe that in my Maker's Eyes this life is nothing but a brief moment. Maybe that is why I can't always understand why things have to happen to me? It gives me something to think about. It gives me hope for a new day. I have been a very negative person for the past two years. I know that I am doing so much better mentally now.

Of course I fall short on many occasions. For the most part, I feel strengthened by my faith. Even though I have all of this in my life, the road still gets bumpy. I still cry a lot. We still have hard times, but something keeps me going. Someone helps me along the way. I am constantly reminded of the goodness that has been brought to me. For me, the answer is my faith, and my family, and the hopes for a new life someday. I am here at this very moment for a reason. I have been given life, and breath. I need to live for that. When it is my time, then it is my time. I am not that different from everyone else.