Jul 23, 2006 04:42 PM
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(Updated Jul 24, 2006 05:15 PM)
Physics tests kept coming and all the while I could only see my level sticking up to 4’s and 5’s out of 20’s. But slowly I sensed the tricks of my teacher. I could see that she deliberately cut my marks for which I hadn’t dared to question her. She even failed me for the first term by just 1 mark and it was visible for me that she had done it intentionally.
Nobody did question her for anything because that was the image she had imprinted in our minds. She blindly insulted those whom she didn’t like and went against her will and especially those who “didn’t” join her tuitions. After each test of her’s, more and more of my classmates where turning to be Physics tuition mates as well. And there was a sudden change in her attitude towards each one of them.
I was always tortured and insulted by her during our regular and practical classes. She used to tease me whether I had cheated the calculations for my practicals from anyone and always tested me about the previous topics she taught in class and made it confusing enough so that I couldn’t answer and could make me stand for her period. Once my group member sympathized “Why are u being so adamant? Why can’t you join for her tuitions? In fact 99% of the class has…I heard that C and R are going to join her the coming term. Better join Sneha or else you will repent!” I spoke “I don’t care H; I am not going to make it easy for her either! If she can teach well in her tuitions then why can’t she do it in school? I wonder why no one complains about her. I am going to tell my dad to. I can’t bare her attitude any longer!” H sighed “I know there’s no use arguing with u but listen Sneha don’t do the mistake of complaining. This school, has got certain “unique” rules and are u aware that for the board practical examination, the external and the internal examiner together decide the marks to be allotted?” I was confused “So what’s with it?” H surprised “ What’s with it? Mrs.J is the internal examiner for Physics of our school and she would be the one deciding what to give for each student. Get the point now?”
Days flew by and I kept working hard for my tests and exams but the more I worked the more stable my position remained. I started becoming more depressed and my hope to master the subject wasn’t working well. My parents noticed the change in me and my dad ventured to talk to Mrs.J about how her offensive behavior was affecting me mentally. But each time I stopped my dad, imagining how it could affect my board results. My condition was worsening up and my parents decided that I need to go for some outside help telling me that I had tried to handle the subject myself from a long time. After a lot of disputes I decided to go for it but I was determined to attend another teacher and not her.
I kept working even after joining tuitions. After a few tests conducted by my tuition sir I and my parents noticed that I was fairing well enough but my condition back in school remained the same. Being a very sensitive person I was completely shattered to see myself going down in the class when others were moving ahead scoring well in the class tests. I later found out that Mrs.J always puts a test in her tuition and later after a week gives a similar test at school. Even though I knew the real reason for the increase in other’s score, my mind wasn’t ready to accept the fact. I was still growing worse mentally. My board exams where fast approaching and I kept telling to my parents I wouldn’t want to attempt it. I cried “I will fail for Physics. Mrs.J had said whoever passes for her final exam paper shall only pass the boards. And I haven’t made through that paper”. It was purely by god’s grace that the priest’s wife had come home for a visit and my mom had shared with her the tension we were facing. She came up like a person god had appointed for me and advised, counseled and guided me. She kept phoning me daily and prayed over the phone. She indulged power into me and told me to work the way I was working. She brainwashed me to ignore the woman who wasn’t even legible to be called a teacher. I slowly started overcoming my sorrows and had gained back my smiles.
With confidence I approached for my board practicals. I entered the lab and saw her seated beside the external examiner. Our exam started and both the teachers began strolling along the room. Mrs.J came along my side many times and gave me mocking looks and stares. But this time it didn’t affect me because I had it written on my heart that I wasn’t going to be affected by her manners. She stood beside each student and helped them for the oral viva conducted by the external examiner. When my name was called out she rejected from her position and sat on a chair placed away and I was happy about it. I was able to answer well and for the first time I had left the lab with happiness conquered in my mind. I did my written exams well too. My results arrived and I scored 85 on 100 for Physics. I was able to beat so many of them who had been at her home classes. Though, the only thing that still aches me is that she had actually pressed her revenge towards me by cutting out 5 marks for my board practicals, again purposely.
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