Meri Aadat... Review on Aadat - JAL

Bikhra Hoon Main Abhi This one refelcts so much into my past..... It seems like yesterday that I fought and broke off with my love.... I dont love her any more... cause she is not the person now what she was 6 years ago.... but then I still love the girl of 6 yrs ago..... We broke-off 6 yrs ago.... Door Jitna bhi tum mujhse.... Pass tere main... Ab to Aadat si hai mujko... Aaise jeene main....Aadat If the above one was on a little slow side, this one I feel gives me a rebel kind of feeling to her today's personality.... Frankly hardly any one who knew what this girl was appreciates her today outlook to the world.... Her world has totally changed.... and this is my rebel like feeling to her today's stance.... Sabhi raaten hain... Sabhi Baaten hai.... Bhula do unhe...... Mita do unhe..... Ab to Aadat si hai mujko....Dil Haray Pukaary How much do I miss you each and every day of my life... I dont know how to say.... But then this song has something in it which makes me sing it and bring out my emotions.... Tere bina zindagi lage ie saza... Tera saath ho yhe saza lage ie jagah... To badte jaye raste saare.... Duniya peeche, hum hain aage... I havent seen you since last 5 years.... I havent heard you since last 3.5 years, but sweetheart every morning when I get up and every night before I sleep, there is only only and only one thing on my mind, in my heart and in my soul..... and that is... Ke Dil Haray, Pukaary tujhe, Maan ja re, Manale mujhe... Sweet heart please please just once before I die.... Sun pyaare laga le gale.. Kho ja re tu gaa le savere... Dil Haray.... I am heart less.... Panchi This one describes what I was for the last 3 years staying away from family and friends in Pune...... My stance on this world was.... Raaste Galliyan Chode aaya main.... Bhule Vade tode chala main.... Yhe Raat aabhi dhal jayegi.... Yhe Baat aabhi badal jayegi.... Tanha hun, rhene do, rehene do... Aasun hun, bhene do, behene do...But there are somethings in life which never change... I am one of those... and will never change..... The only change I have developed is my love for this girl... I some how fail to believe that some where I still love this girl... Dont know why but then I think its over... Ik Din Aye Ga I dont know how people take this song... but I take this song as a song from me for my heart... which somewhere... somehow still remembers the significance and impact this girl has had on my life.... I refuse to forget that.... Today what ever person I am... this phase of my life has to do a lot with it... Probably I wouldnt have been this straight forward and honest if she was not there in my life ... or she was not to go away from my life... isnt it??? Teri Yaad Even today... when miss you I just go to the place where we had been... Sometimes I still find your bangle beneath my pillow which you left that day by mistake... How couldnt you trust me that I could never ever go and give it to your mom.... I just wanted to know why did you lie to your parents... every one was coming to my place.... wasnt that an excuse enough to give to your parents.... why did you lie??? I wanted to know the reason and thats why was hiding from you that its still with me.... but you even took away that bangle from me... you took away all the snaps... but you will never be able to take away the best of presents you had given to me.... you can not take away the memories... Jo saapne sajaye milke... Khushi ke pal bitaye mil ke.. Kya paaya maine.... kya khoya.... Kab jaaga hun main.... Kab sooya.... Teri har baat rulaye jab mujheko... Main kho jaunga... Who teri chahat sataye jab mujheko.. Main bheeg jaunga....Lamhay Well this song started it all for jal... and so did this song for me... My second day in a new school and her first.... our walk... no our crawl back to your home after school... the badminton court in the evening... hours on the phone crying, laughing, talking, convincing... the stadium in the morning... our tuitions ending late night at her place... (Well I joined these classes only because they were held at her place...) Na main jaanu, Na tu Jaane, Kaisa hai yhe aalam, koi na jaane.. Yes no one knew why I was special to you on that particular day during our class... but you knew and I knew it from your ever expressive beautiful deep big eyes... Saagar ki lheron se ghera hai mera pyaar... Sheraon ki hawaon main kaise aayegi bahaar... Sometimes I dont agree when people say that think 1000 times before saying any thing... because I feel comfortable being straight from the heart... I say and I do what I feel from my heart. And some how my heart and mind are always in sync... I still regret why I asked you to keep out of that argument of mine with our prof... but to be honest I just wanted you to be in his good books... I never wanted him to take that issue to your parents who were just next door.. I knew your parents were impressed with my efforts in the class... always being on the top... but as per a parents view on love at that age this was nothing for us... they just wanted us to study... but then I always wanted to go in the defence services and you knew it... I still know how much you supported me... and the ing prof didnt give us a holiday... I left... I left you with those harsh words of not interfering in my business.... and that was it... I know you were about to agree after me chasing you for 4 long years.. but then... one bad thing and I was left all alone... hey sweet heart... I never told you... but after this I never gave those exams.... I didnt go for my dream.... cause you had become my dream, my life.... I remember my mom in tears after our break up... Today I dont know what you are to me... but I know what I am to you... a person always to keep away.... a person to always ignore.... a person to always hate... a person... no... no more a person... just a dead man... buried deep in the memory lane.... buried so deep that even if you try to dig the dead body out... you will get nothing but some skeleton remains... Aandhi ho ya toofan ho, mera maan main rahe tu saada, Koi aapna ho ya paraya ho, usse dhundu main kahan... And even today I am all alone.... not wating for you to come back.. but just praying you are all fine and happy with that guy.... all the best dear... Phir kyun hai yhe tanhaai, kaisi hai yhe ruswai... Gum ho gaye hum, kho gaye hum.... ================================================ I am sorry, but I can not continue any more...... Writing this is the most painful experience of my life.... Maana Bikhara hoon aabhi... Maine Khwab Peroye the... Teri Saanon Main gum hun abhi... Meri Chahat aadhori hai... <<??SHIKHAR??>>

PS: This review is fictional and any resemblence to any person living or dead is co-incidental.