Remember me? I was once the child that you cradled in your arms, that was when you loved me. you was happy with me but then he came along. he raped me, my young innocence had been taken away from me by him. but I promise yelled for him to stop you was my mother all I wanted was you to be happy I loved you. I never tried to steal him but you didn't believe this the hatred in your eyes was unbearable. you grabbed me by the top of my head and carried on hitting me until I was in hosbital.
You came to visit so that it didn't look weird to the neighbours. you would say ' you tell them anything and I will get you and slowly kill you' holding the tears in burnt my eyes all I wanted was you to love me I was only ten years old.
I didn't that the man you claimed to love, the man that rapped me would beat you black and blue and all I ever did was be nice to you but he was always your first choice.
The social workers spoke to me I denyed it of course I had to. I went home within a week. he was there he streamed at me saying get out there and make food for us now so I did as he said. my mother chose to still abuse me but he stopped and I was thankful for this but all I wanted was my mother to stopping hitting me.
I started secondary school where I was picked on because my mother had bought me messy cloths, so I was bullied I kept thinking I mights as well be dead. the pain I go through. but I didn't have the courage to kill myself.
I'm glad I didn't because at 16 I moved out and went to live with some close relatives. I got a good job and was happy. I have not spoken to my mother or him since I left home.
