Sometimes you have different kind of mood swings at same time. You can feel good, lazy, sad or may be nothing at sometime. Like I felt yesterday, I was so lazy to get out of my bed as I want to enjoy my Sunday by sleeping, but for at least seeing one sunshine I woke up at around 2:30 pm, I have habit of checking of my messages in my phone every morning, I did the same after taking a break from my sleep. I always expect one message in my wats app from one person and I got that message from him and replied. I got up and brushed my teeth and then I got a message from my stomach to eat something. I satisfied my stomach with a bread-omlet and then I was feeling good and then suddenly a mood swing happened I felt excited as I was going to buy a scooty, but suddenly the plan cancelled because of some reason. Before that a mood swing happened I got a message of him asking a picture of my younger sister in saree which was gifted by his mother to me. I asked him why he told his mom about that saree and all, he just gave me a stupid reason for that, as I was annoyed already I just forwarded a picture of my younger sister with her friend, to him. I got a message that why you sent a picture of another girl with my sister and then he said he just deleted the picture and he did not want any other. I felt bad as his mom has certain reasons to hate me, as the reasons are not logical or worth but still she have them. Then again there happened a mood swing and because of cancelling of my scooty plan there happened a third mood swing also, so at the same time I was having three mood swings and I was not able to decide exactly what I m feeling. I wanted to know what exactly I want at that time, I was feeling so bad that I just decided to have a walk towards market, then I just heard “Gurbani” in nearby Gurudwara, I just entered there and sit for a while I felt good, but yes I was sad and then I knew the reason of my sadness. Actually I want importance for me from one special person in my life and from past few days I am not getting that and because of that I am having lot of mood swings and sometimes I just want to be alone forever even not for single day I just want to take decision right there as I want to satisfy myself of not having double thoughts. Then I got a call in the evening while walking in market from him and he asked me to talk but I refused and again he told me that get back home we will talk. I went back to home but I got no call from him and in night around 11:30 pm I got a message from him of concerning had dinner? I was like why do you care? And then he said ok. Can you believe the most common answer of him is ok when he understood that I am upset because of some reason, he always said ok as he do not want to entertain me for any more time or like he did not want to waste his time on me. I felt bad and then I just find a letter which he wrote in his bad time, I clicked a picture of it and sent the same to him, and I also sent one of my photograph by saying that he is not the same man I loved he changed and this time I just met a stranger one, the answer came thanks for sending the letter with a pause and your picture and then again a long pause we will talk about it tomorrow. Its all looks like a formality, why we need to do a formality if a person do not want emotional things in his life he/she should not involve in relationship having emotional touches and if he/she is in such relationship then they should face the things together. But here I can only see my efforts of doing that sometimes! I think that is life you need to face different mood swings differently!
