‘I will always love you’ … I blurted out while she was busy praising the night. Night always looks beautiful on “13thFloor”. Yeah the same old loyal hangout place for me. Before she could realize that I am no more loyal to her she asked “Will ???” What do you mean?.. I was not prepared to explain because I wasn’t prepared to tell her. Honestly, I did not know when realization shook me. I don’t know when this “Will” sneaked in between the three magical words.
Biggest myth that I had about love and relationship broke today. But the saddest part is that the myth broke with my own experience. Relationships, where nothing is going wrong are not a guarantee of lifetime. Sometime love takes a backseat even without fights, abuses and infidelities . They break too. Reasons and excuses are gathered later, just before walking out. It’s just that I did not think of any at the moment.
‘Water rising from the corners met right at the mid of her big beautiful eyes and dropped like a pearl in the wine glass’. Being a writer sometimes makes you so cynical about others pain that the moment you find anyone crying you start composing poetries out of it. I had nothing to console her. What I needed desperately was a counselor, who can tell me if anything wrong with me. Even the Church Father would have helped. Why suddenly I have stopped feeling about the person I loved so much till yesterday … nope may be a month ago .. or months … I don’t recollect when did I kiss her last or reminded loving her. She still looks the same beautiful gal .. nice cute and cuddly .. But I don’t love her anymore or probably I will always love her as someone whom I loved once. That’s it.
Who invented the word “Better” I have no idea .. but I must pat his back . There is everything almost perfect and still there is something “Better” than that.There is always more to everything which is complete in itself . I don’t know if everyone agrees but yes there is. I don’t know if I should just insult myself that I turned out to be the typical human. One who roams unsatisfied desiring for more like a dog. One who can be tamed with a better and tastier biscuit regardless loyalty to his old master .
No matter how much you love someone there is always a possibility that someone else can love them a little more or differently. Love is also like a product.. If anyone launches it in different flavors or with a buyback scheme .. You tend to loose your customer.Apologies! if I made it sound like “Business” …. But that’s what we have made it.
I left the table while she still tried recollecting her faults in the past. But sometime it not your fault rather someone else’s extra efforts which takes the cake away.
And I walk with my head held high saying “Its Human to want more”
