Three is A Crowd, Part 3- The Reply-cont.

with his words, plans and intention to marry me. If he is lying or too good to be pretending, well-sorry for me to believe him so much. But I believe he will answer for all his deeds comes judgment day. Call me foolish, but I'll not be bitter with him. I'm even thankful he came into my life to love, inspired and lift me up. And I still believe he is one wonderful person, I met.

Another thing you mentioned was, "I don't brag and I don't lie" I'm thankful for your honesty and integrity, for the love and care you showed to me in many ways. I can't ask for more. The short time that I knew you - it seems like I know your whole life through. Any woman who will get to know you will agree with me that your one of the rare wonderful person here on net. Thank you for the idea that, " I'll go to great lengths to win you over."If only we have met before, maybe we could be together now. So I'll go back again to the idea "There must be some reasons why we met late." So for this I still stick to my plans and wait for the signs to better understand why.

Another point you wrote I wanted to mention, "I have definite advantage over Michael because you and I communicate everyday." Its true that you have that definite advantage over Michael, as we talk almost everyday. But... it's not the quantityof talks but rather the quality of time and talks that counts most. But I don't say too that our talks were not that important, the fact that I stay longer time talking to you, means that we shared so many quality talks online. I may not have told you these, but I always appreciate you for waiting patiently for me to come online. I'm always thankful for your care, concerns, sympathy, love and affection. You're always ready to lend me your ear to listen to my woes and fears. You always made me comfortable to share with you my ups and downs and offer your shoulder to cry on. Even we are miles apart. I know I can always count on you and trust you.

As for Michael being stuck away in a far away place is not at all a hindrance for understanding him. From the start he already told me that he can't be online always and that communication is the main problem for us. It's how we understand each other count most. I'm not trying to offend you, but try putting yourself on his shoes and for that same reason, "I'll give up love for someone else because I can talk with them everyday." It just happened that you came and caught my attention so much . That's how or where the battle started within myself. I never heard Michael doubted me despite he knows I'm talking with my chat mates always. Actually , I am the one being unfair to him, because I still entertain suitors. Because, before you came into my life I'm very much confident that no one will stirred up the smooth sailing love boat where Michael and I sails away.

Modesty aside, I have lots of marriage proposal from young and adults alike, but I never give a damn because I believe and prayed for Michael and our love always. But... I never thought I'll fall into my own trap. All I know is, I just want to make you happy because your sad being a widow and alone. But the more I know you, the more I'm getting upset or sad if we don't talk. That's when I started to ask God's to guide me for my decision. I know there must be some reason why we met. Whatever it is, in due time I will know.

And as you said, "All is fair in love and war." Maybe yes, and I don't expect you either to do dirty tricks to win me over, because if you win because of your

deception, sooner or later, truth will always come out, and you will never be happy at all if you did.

And I know and your right to say that, " I'm too much of a gentleman" it's hard to explain but you don't need to say more for me to know you. I can feel and I can tell. In my whole life I never dreamed or imagine myself to be engaged in this kind of battle. " The battle of the heart and soul"more so...not at this late age of my life. I'm just a simple woman with simple dreams, needs, and wants. I never thought that one day I'll have my own share of broken marriage. Well, that's troubled water under the bridge and what I need now is to look forward and try to forget the bitterness in my heart. Learn the lessons from the past to have a more rewarding and happy tomorrow. I will close this letter with the hope that one day we both will understand the mystery of what love is all about. Let's keep on praying for the right decision not just the passion/love we all feel.

Thank you for your understanding and love.