Its not easy to face life head on, and not find myself questioning my ability to cope with the world and its challenges. Pushing oneself is not the easiest task, and those who do so, find out only too quickly, that the harder you push at the world, the harder it will push back. It is much easier to lay down and except defeat, but since I know, nor understand such a word let me then talk about what I feel it takes to Carry on. The world is brimming with educated derelicts. The most knowledgeable man is the one who knows he has much to learn about himself and about the world around him. Wisdom comes with learning and understanding that there is still much to learn. As for myself, I've had to pick up, and dust myself off more times then I wish to count, but I have done so time and time again no matter what the situation. It's something that I feel I have to do. In many ways I believe that it has become an instinctive process for me. I would be lying if I said that I do not question myself, and whether I can cope with what has befallen me at times in my life, we all do, no one is so strong. You cannot be the best version of yourself all the time. Still, even when I'm at my lowest and questioning myself, I pick myself up. Even when my own mind, body, and soul tell me that I cannot. I think that even when I die, after the last breath of air leaves my lungs, my body will instinctively try and pick itself up, and push itself forward. It seems the more I push to better myself, the more life pushes back. Since I'm not gonna stop pushing until I achieve my life's goals, everyone just sit back and enjoy the show. Support me, boo me, either way you're adding to the fire. Lets see who wins the confidence game. Last knowned interest indulged in was shaving my head off ...hahahahaha.