So much has been written on this before…by others and by me…
After all we are all alike
We share, we steal, we cry, we crib, we miss, and again we smile……………
But the euphoria and enigma still the same…the saga is still playing on. And it’s going on strong
Its taking its toll at will……&……we are the prey…..
Like always during those days too, we were on talking spree
Actually when ever we were to gather we
Use to discuss/fight a lot...& it was all to brace his future
& now I know..what it was.....his future was a stronger me…..
Always tried to brace me in a better way………he was the first one to tell me silently
He just whispered...Uchcho you think you are smart but...you aren’t…you just an emotional fool…….n how true that was…………his words………..
And today when he is not with me I’d begun to hear him, like I hear radio i.e.
When I have to….its regular n continuous with me. As the tuner is with me in me...
It used to be different before he broke me into pieces and left.
I loved him so much. He knew that...coz he taught me how to love…..
.his philosophy was simple. & that was.” WHEN YOU GIVE, GIVE YOURSELF”
Now when I am hurt. I decided not to love anyone anymore…….
A diary of the time spent with him and around him have saved me today
From ruining and erasing myself…it barely kept me away from doing this Pa
That day you weren’t the only one I lost...infact I lost the count of my….losses
Now I have given up loving /trusting anyone in the name of preserving my heart………..
All am trying now is to cover my scars, time has made on my heart…to vent out I do this!!
I write……….………….
Now I am off my addiction of trust and love……….. Am not emotional fool any more
In these quiet moments when no one else is around, I listen closely to that small still voice of my heart and see what it is saying. It says, I’m glad I’m alive right now and glad for a good family and friends and glad for those people that have enhanced my life by being a part of me regardless of how big or small. I'm glad they love me even when I make mistakes sometimes and when I mess up…………….
Am I changing? Or….!
