My heart still skips a beat when he looks at me and smiles.
I still feel at ease and relaxed when he's around. Relaxed such that I know no wrong, no negativity, no discomfort.
I still place some trust in him.
I still love his jokes.
I can still lay in his arms. close my eyes and want to be there forever.
Oh it still feels divine when he holds me.
BUT
I also know he has broken my heart a lot many times.
I also know that he wont help me get rid of my insecurities and doubts.
I also know that people don't change.
I also know that he does still lie.
DAMN PRACTICALITY.
DAMN DAMN DAMN
Hadn't I told myself that I will never see his face again ? Hadn't I told my self that I will never let him hold me again. Hadn't I thought that I will never feel engrossed or whatever that is that makes me forget all else when I am with him.
P.S. - Hugging in a car isn't a crime and cops should not try and make money out of such a bloody simple gesture.
