Past few weeks are going little heavy, some souls resting in peace, though all elderly, still.
We went for the condolences, the situation is so odd, they expect you to speak, but we don’t know what to speak.. a few tears, the loss is irreplaceable.. in one case he was my grand father(relative) , who was turning 100 on this 27th, a grand party was placed to honour it, but he couldn’t make it, died just a week before his grand daughter’s marriage.. every ritual was done in a fast forward mode.. circumstances. Pushing us..move on! Then I attended a funeral of one of my uncle.. he has 2 sons, just after the funeral, they both were talking and smiling, sharing the pictures of their kids on their mobiles.. aren’t they supposed to mourn..just a thought of imagining something like that with my parents... it makes me shiver, something I can never even think of.. but then may be, since my uncle was not keeping well, they were mentally prepared..but making it so obvious or is it just a move on theory, then suddenly it reminded me of my nani, when she died, I was happy(sorry for using this shameless expression) my mom asked me to stay little sombre, but I had seen her suffering, her pain, for years, her dependency on people, unable to make them understand what she wanted, depending for every little thing , I use to feel helpless, pray for ending her sufferings, when I heard the news, I thanked god for ending all her miseries, it was not just hers, but people who were living with her, also suffered..i miss her whenever I go there, a feeble body with a divine smile, a shaky voice. The worst part about the recent deaths is we have the widows, a lady mourning for her husband, whether he was 99 or 79, who needs them most at this juncture.
But somehow I feel we are moving very fast with the emotions..emotions, which we need to live, or else robots would have replaced us long back!!
Edited on december 12,09 : I wrote this DP when I felt the pain of one of the persons I love the most, how she will be able to resist this pain, but today fighting all my emotions, I m trying to convince my self, that she departed within a month of her husaband's death, it was good for her, but ............
