..Like manholes and poison bottles I was made to be self-locking and I could no longer be bothered pretending I might have a key ... I stopped trying to be normal and began to enjoy a small, still life that fitted very snugly around nobody but me......... Pain and depression I found unpleasant but you must understand that what made them unendurable was hope. That tension between my situation and my hopes for the better ... can eventually only do what tension does, it causes splits and tears, a degree of loss. ... And when the hoped-for future finally appears, I would rather not see what it brings because hope has already robbed it, mortgaged it to the bone. ... for the rest of the time... I develop like a plant in a time-lapse video.
....the rest of my interests:
naturopathy, neck, needle work, nudity, ogee, originality, pagan, pain, photgraphy, pinky and the brain, portishead, pottery, ramana maharshi, retro lovers, rolling stones, ry cooder, sade, sandals, sanskrit, santessa, sarees, sarongs, satin, scarves, silence, sinead o' connor, smoking, spiderman, spiritualism, stains, star gazing, stillness, stones, summum bonum, tangents, tapestry, tears, the labyrinth, tight blue jeans, tori amos, tote bags, travel, trees, twilight, van morrison, vastness, vedas, vernacular designs. 60's, 80's, a.l.kennedy, abstract art, adrenaline, anklets, architecture, art of listening, azoic, babies, baxter, beaches, biophilia, bjork, black and white, black,blue,blue lights, bob dylan, bono, books-that-cant-be-made-into-movies, buddhism, chieftans, chiffon, chris cornell, coldplay, colorpurple, cotton, cranberries, crimson, crushed silk, crystals, curaçao, curves, dave mathewsband, designing, dexter, dreams, dried leaves, fingerpaint, fingers, flower power, flowers, flutes, foreplay, frankinscence, fruitloop daydreams, gardens, giggles, giving gifts, gothic gardens, grass land, green design, gulzar, hair, herbalism, home, identitymanagement, indifference, indigo, j.krishnamurti, janis joplin, joan osbourne, jojoba oil, k.d.lang, karma, khakis, klezmic music, krishna, lateral thinking, laughter, laurie baker, linda perry, loops, love, macroons, making babies smile, making up, marraige architecture, meadows, metaphysics, mies vander rohe, momentary lapse of reason
