years ago... i saw someone getting hacked to death in a movie theatre... since then i haven't gone to a theatre to see a movie... there were so many opportunities as i always get first day tickets but... i saved this for a special occasion....

now... the day has come to break the fast... the special occasion never came... beggars cant chose...

so... will see a movie... sometime soon... in a theatre... alone...

not because i believe in them as a fashion statement... not because it increased my cool factor... not because it impressed impressionable minds...

i got my tattoos because i needed closure in a lot of things... the physical pain set a lot of things into perspective... the lasting image that i carry on my body reminds me of what i am... and what i have to do before i end my earthly journey....

these tattoos... each one of them... are the only things that will leave this planet with me... because i came to this world empty handed... i leave empty handed... but i take my memories with me... i take these reminders with me...

~finis~

but for the first time in my bl**dy life... got no words... will sit in a corner and listen to something...

... because God knows that others cannot take the amount that I can

I am gonna follow the USEFUL TIPS listed out on the side of this form...

TIP 1: Open your heart

I do not have a heart... someone took it and broke it and tossed the million pieces into the toilet bowl and flushed it... and they had a great laugh doing it too...

TIP 2: Write what's on your mind

I do not have a mind... its been put through a shredder and it doesn't work anymore... I'm a mindless, heartless, soulless man that has no friends... no one to listen to... no one to talk to...

In the words of Pinhead - I am exquisitely empty

TIP 3: Use Bold, Italics and Insert hyperlinks where required

Why cant the editor help me do all that? Each time i make an entry its like coding a whole web page. I will NOT USE bold or Italics...

TIP 4: Upload videos from dekhona.com

I will do this one... I just uploaded one of my all time favourite hindi songs... and Hema Malini is the most beautiful woman to ever grace the silver screen

Now... for a drink... or many...

This is what's playing on my itunes list...

* I miss you - Incubus
* Slave to Love - Brian Ferry
* Everybody Hurts - REM
* Trampled Rose - Alison Krauss
* King of Pain - Alanis Morisette
* Ten Years Gone - Led Zeppelin
* Goodbye Blue Sky - Pink Floyd
* Far Away - Nickelback

No... you can never move on...

I kept tapping my SHIFT key and cursing cos the stupid cursor wasn't going to a new line... how cool...

the pain will linger on forever... the pain of misunderstandings... the pain of accusations... the pain of true love lost... the pain of living... not knowing why... pain is pure...