..That was an auditory abstract of agony and pain..its ringing in my ears still hours after the early morning episode and guess that will perhaps haunt me for weeks and weeks to come..
I dont think I can perhaps shrug away that as another little accident ,act of negligence dictating just a mild reprimand whatsoever..i dont know..maybe i was there when it happened..i was there to witness that only yowl that pierced the dawn's muteness..may be i was also in a way responsible for the fatality of that poor animal..
Little could have i realised, that a few metres away a dog was going to be slayed , exactly by where i could pass in another few seconds , gaping at the first widest patch of greyness of the day. The fellow seemed to appear out of a nearby shrub and oddly seemed somnolent still probably from its slumber . I have been thinking canines became brisk the moment they wake up from their animal sleep. He (he?) was a light browned and a little skimpy . That was all i could observe in the early day light. I could also observe a pair of bright yellow lights well away from where i was , while the animal attempted to cross the road. He came all the way to the centre of that 100 feet road. I was doing about 60 in my bike and had no intention of stopping all the way for this silly creature. I gave a brief "Konk" and noticed to my satisfaction that the dog was atleast braced up enough to respond to my horn and retreat. It did retreat and to my horror saw it moving back from where it departed..dead slow.By now the yellow lights were just a few foot away. He had managed to come to that spot in just a couple or so of seconds with his bolting speed . It was a ambassador call taxi.
The car did the unfortunate thing .. by now i was a little away .. but near enough to hear the squeal and see the poor creature emerging from the recess of the car. The driver did a hurried brake. I was still riding witnessing all this and before i could turn straight to stabilise myself and turn back again ,the car was gone. The dog was trying to standup , still howling.. thats all i could observe. I did not dare go back and the spot disappeared out of my sight.
Thoughts clouded me immediately.. go back and see what can be done? how long before it will howl till its end? call somebody? call redcross? silly , why do i need to do it for simply a dog run over ?more over i didnt know anybody who can help , even then nobody will be awake at this time..and by the time to settle any of this cognizance , my destination has come..
It indeed gives me little pangs of guilt to have left that animal all alone tormented to its death ..maybe if i had stopped and let the dog go by this would not have happened ... only if that rogue driver had been more alert the dog would not have been killed.. i am a vegetarian and cant even imagine myself causing harm to any bovines/canines/felines or just any beasts alike..
How much ever i may mitigate and rationalize things i could do nothing but just mull over my own impuissance....mull over my own impuissance..mull over my own impuissance..mull over my own impuissance...