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The Darkness of my Heart

Posted on Jul 22, 2009 under General

In the Dark Night of my Heart

your Golden Dawn broke on my desolate horizon

from beyond the circumference of hope

you came into my world

like a glorious sunrise

your rays of joy melted the block of ice

that imprisoned my heart

on barren rocks this lonely mountain goat
looked unto the starry sky above

crying, "Oh Love, why hast thou forsaken me?

was I not True to my Heart?

have I not devoted myself to thee?

have I not endured your tests?

have I note resisted temptation,

standing strong and faithful?"

& then you came as the Dawn

over that cold summit of solitude

and the snows did melt

in streams down hillsides

growing green to greet the spring

into fertile valleys reawakening

where hummingbirds and bees

dally with morning glories and butterflies

and all the colors of Dawn's Rainbow

paint the once gray vale

& now my eyes twinkle with intimate fire

mirrored in your pair of beautiful sapphires

I am amazed at your beauty

I am green and lush with life

& have fallen in Love

& now Pan courses through my veins

& stamps my cloven feet

& sprouts lusty horns from my head

my desires rage like a burning spear

as I chase you through glades of joyfulness

teeming with a thousand forms

for we are divided for Love's sake

for chance of Union

you ignited the passions of an ice-locked Heart

& never fail to arouse

my coiled slumbering desire

to rise in a pillar of fiery glory

in my yearning for you

& I am burning for you

to me, to me,

for I Love thee!

I Love thee....................



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God said:

Posted on Apr 18, 2009 under General

There is so much said in the world about being grounded. It seems to Me that you have
had your feet on the ground well enough. What about being Heavened? Do you really have
to have your shoes flat on the ground all the time?

You know when a parent tells his child that he is grounded, it is meant to be a
punishment. It means the child has infringed on something and can't be allowed to
go anywhere for a while. The child is supposed to learn his lesson.
He is being restricted so that later he can be free.

If you adhere to the idea that on Earth you have to be grounded, or more grounded,
that being grounded is better than soaring high, then you imprison yourself. Certainly,
you are denying yourself. Of course, you want your feet on the ground, but is that all?
Beloveds, you also have to free yourself to reach high. Sometimes, beloveds, you have to
take flight. You are not to always dig your heels in. Sometimes you are to take off,
let go, leap, take a chance, stop holding on to the boundaries that the world calls
reality. Down to earth is good, yet there's nothing wrong with aspiring.
Aspiring may be better. With the human mind, one can be grounded and aspire at the same time.

Many of My children who are reaching for the heights have been called dreamers, as if
being a dreamer were something to be frowned upon. I hope you, beloved, don't cavalierly
dismiss anyone as a dreamer. Certainly, don't deny yourself the privilege of having
dreams, even dreams no one ever dreamed of before. Dreams are the guiding stars of your
life! Without dreams, you would stay where you are. Without dreams, where would you want
to go? Dreams reveal desires, and desires are a good thing. What would have manifested
if no one had dreamed of them? You are meant to have dreams. You are meant to exceed
the perimeters of the world.

Without dreams, you would be heavy-footed. Tied tightly to the ground, you would be leaden.
I say again, What about being Heavened? Certainly you would be light of foot in Heaven.
Even on your way to Heaven, you would be light-footed. Your heart is connected to all
this. You wouldn't think you are always to be down-hearted or heavy-hearted.
Surely you deserve to be light-hearted. Your heart is entitled to have its way, and its
way is that it is just fine to look higher than the ground. Why, if you are always
looking down because you heard it was good to or for any reason, think of all that you
would miss. Ground is good, and the sky is too.

Being grounded is a way to say: "Stay locked in the Chess game of life. Go no further.
Don't dare. You might be laughed at."

Beloveds, dreams are the avenue by which you do go further. Dreams are the rudder of the
ship of life. What uncharted lands will you travel to? What horizons will you open up
for others to see? What mountains will you climb? What gold will you discover?
What new treasures are there that have not yet been found? How do you know what is ahead
of you unless you venture there? How do you know what possibilities there are unless
you open your heart to them? What are you withholding that is yours to give?

Who catches fish unless he goes fishing and casts his line in the water?

It's not that all your dreams have to come true. It's that you have to have them.

go: what-dreams-are-for


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She dwells in my heart ...

Posted on Apr 18, 2009 under General

only for the lyrics of "Make Me Wanna Holler"


My mother used to whore herself
And my father
Would reap the benefits of her labor
It was almost as if she was absent
Absent from her own life
I remember
She would scrub the floors for the white folks
Just to come home
To cook and to clean
For the man who broke her
And i love to watch her dance to the tunes on
The soul stations, yeah
Just to ease her mind

But my mother
She was vindictive in her own fashion (=rachsüchtig)
So she passed down to me her traits (=die Charakterzüge)
Like that of her brown eyes and her dark hair
She passed down to me
Her sadness

Make me wanna holler
The sadness fills my heart

My child will one day ask me
What will i be?
As a child i promised myself
I'd never be
Like my mother or my father
I would ask myself,
"did he feel so much pain
That it would make him wanna hurt another?"

But there was no excuse
There was no excuse to make up for the pain
That i knew my mother felt

But somewhere my destiny came
That i too became a slave, to my heart
Wanting love so badly
That i'd do anything
No matter the shame

Make me wanna holler

Why?
I never got the nerve
To ask my father "why?"
But my mother

She would say,
She stayed for my brother and myself
But i would have sold my soul
Just to share in one day
Of my mother's desired happiness

When night fell
Sometimes when night fell
I'd close my eyes
And i'd hide
Close your eyes
When they would yell and scream
When my father would paint her
With a dark face
Of being belittled, disrespected
And set aside
His liquor, the salve (Salbe)
For the unseen wounds

I learned so much from him
What did i learn?
How to hurt all of those
Who try to get too close

Make me wanna holler
Make me wanna holler
Sometimes i get so...
Make me wanna holler
I just don't understand
Why?
Make me wanna holler
Tell me why
Mmm, so sorry
So sorry for the pain
Make me wanna holler
So sorry

I'm so sorry
Just play for me
Play for me

She would close her eyes and cry
He would close his heart and hide
She would close her eyes and cry

After all this time
Nothing's changed

Make me wanna holler
Make me want to holler
Yes i do
Make me wanna holler
Sell my soul just to see ya happy
So sorry for the pain
Make me wanna holler
So sorry, so sorry, so sorry, yeah
Make me wanna holler
So sorry for the pain

I always thought my mother
Deserved so much more
But i never knew how to fix that
I drown myself in guilt
I just don't know what to do
No
Mama i love you.
(sorry, no version of it in the net)



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Am I So Beautiful?

Posted on Apr 13, 2009 under General

I am beautiful
Not only because of the curve of my hips
Or the shape of my body
Not only because of the fullness of my lips
Or the curl of my eye lashes

I am beautiful because I want to be
I am beautiful because God made me that way
I am beautiful because in my eyes
There is no one more beautiful than me

I am beautiful because I have a heart
And that is a beautiful thing
I am beautiful because I have a brain
And that is a beautiful thing
I am beautiful because I give advice
And that is a beautiful thing

I am beautiful because I want to be
I am beautiful because God made me that way
I am beautiful because in my eyes
There is no one more beautiful than me

I am beautiful because I have confidence
I am beautiful because I have determination and wit
I am beautiful because I have goals and I plan to reach them
I am beautiful because I am always there to lend a helping hand

I am beautiful because I want to be
I am beautiful because God made me that way
I am beautiful because in my eyes
There is no one more beautiful than me



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Thinking of you

Posted on Apr 02, 2009 under General

When I start thinking of you,
I ask myself, why?
That every now and then,
You are the one that I think of.
Your voice that whispers in my ear,
The touch that is warm when I feel,
The way that you look at me,
The kiss that makes me feel, I'm complete.
Is it a dream or I am just kidding?
The dream that I want to hold,
A dream that I want to come true,
Because it is a dream that's all about you Npo.
All I want right now,
Is your complete love,
A love where I belong,
Because all I need is love.





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Love is an Ocean

Posted on Mar 26, 2009 under General

Your love is... an ocean,
Where sand meets the sea,
Waves of love rolling over me,

Your love comes to me,
As the tide comes to the shore,
Wanting and needing to embrace me more,

Your love is... the moon,
Shinning across the shimmering sea,
Deep, wide, strong, and calm.
Always there to carry me..

Your love is... my shelter,
My compass, my true north,
Where ever I go, your love is guiding me forth,

Your love is.... the fresh ocean breeze,
Gently sweeping across my face,
Touching me from place to place,

Your love is...
The salty air I smell,
Clearing my thoughts and thinking,

Your love is...
The life preserver that keeps me from sinking,

When I go there to the sea,
I am not alone, for your love is with me,

I feel you all around,
The beauty, the wind, the mystery,

Your love engulfs me,
Takes my breath away,
Holds me in wind's arms,

When I close my eyes,
Dancing memories of your charms,
Never escape my deepest memory,

So if ever our souls part to say goodbye,
Meet me there, where the sea meets the sky,

Your love will forever be with me,
Where the sands touch the sea,

Our love lives on,
Our love flows back out into all eternity.




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Trying to forget Something?

Posted on Mar 25, 2009 under General

Us ajnabi ka youn na intezaar karo
Is aashiq dil ka na aitbaar karo
Roz nikla karen kisi ke yaad mein aansoo
Itna kabhi na kisi se pyaar karo

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Lamha Lamha Sanse Khatm Ho Rahi Hai,
Jindagi Maut Ke Pahloo Me So Rahi Hai,
Us Bewafa Se Mat Pucho Meri Maut Ki Wajah,
Wo To Bus Jamane Ko Dikhane Ke Liye Ro Rahi Hai

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Jab bhi kisiko kareeb paya hai
Kasam khuda ki wahin dhoka khaya hai
Kyon dosh dete ho kaanton ko
Ye zakhm to humne phoolon se paya hai!!

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Jab hamko unse mohabbat thi
Unhe hamari mohabbat pe shak tha
Jab unhe ehsas hua hamari mohabbat ka
Tab hum par kisi aur ka hak tha



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Sakoot-E-Qurb main utro to yaad kar lena
Kabhi jo toot k bikhro to yaad kr lena
Khushi k waqt main chahey hume bhula dena
Ghamon ki rah jo dekho to yaad kar lena
Ganwa na dena umar kaheen pashymanioyn me
Khud apne aap se uljho to yaad kar lena
Mana k tum guftago k mahir ho
Wafa k lafz pe atko, to yaad kar lena

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Koi ro kar judaa hota hai….
koi hass kar juda hota hai….
juda hone ka gham to tab hota hai…
jab koi kisi ka hokar juda hota hai…

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