Today is your birthday, my friend my brother Sajith,& I have been thinking about it so many times in the past a few weeks. should i text it today to wish you a happy birthday? or just a call is enough!!!!!!!!last night i was crying in my dream again...thinking of the events in my life i dreamt of you stood on a platform waving at me!!!I still remember that comment..saying "bhai Pune aajao"…I was dual mind i called you up & you werte vlike ok bhai yes you should go back to home for now...but di come soon.....(THIS WAS FROM CHENNAI AIRPORT) this morning i woke up with tears still running down my face, i decided not to message you, simply because i have promised your brother...(THAT'S MYSELF) that i will call you n tell you again that how much you mean to me in my life....... it was a very tough decision to make,tough as in bicoz i have on the brink of collapsing ve' gone week offlate...and i think that may be its unable for me to maintain relations/promises but i had to do it to protect the last thing left with me - my friends my strength.....Sajiths I still have your voice in my heart..i still hear it....& it is still the strength...."bhai I am their with you"...your voice was trembling n you were crying...(it was on the day when my Pa passed away).......Love you bhai.....your friendship and your support have made me bounce back....shukriya Sajith.....happy birthday, my brother my friend want you to know, i am thankful for the love you gave me. i know you did your best to fight for me. to boost me.....& see for yourself...here i am.....i wish you will be happy with the your family & with all the goodness God has arranged for you.you know, i will always love you.

UR

K...................

Hi friends….good evening …this is just a way to vent out your short thinking /frustration……….I confess it loud and clear that I am luckiest of the lot that I have you… with me……
A friend and shoulder to lean on…………..not to cry…….my share of tears are already rolled down my cheeks………………..
This is just some scribbling...wanna share it with you………..my family……my world……thankyou all

Weary and exhausted…these eyes skyward I lift….



my mind teems with questions…….
when, where, how…why…????
As though somewhere in its womb...
the sky holds all the answers …
the same timeless, ageless questions…..
A hundred times have I sought to unravel...
these mysteries that so shroud my mind…
why am i here..????
Where do I go from here…???
Why do I live and breathe…
the same life that thousands before me have lived….
the same deaths that thousands before me have died….
why do I feel??/
the same feelings that thousands before me have felt
feelings of joy …
feelings of pain…
elation one day…
anguish another ….
We win some...
we lose some…
today i laugh…
tomorrow i weep…
one moment i am in love with life...
another moment i wish nothing more than to die…
the wisdom of the sages..
The foolishness of the simpletons….
the heights of ecstasy…
the depths of despair...
the innumerous achievements of mankind...
coupled with all its failings …
does’nt everything come to naught
in one sweeping moment of realization…
that evrything is but a passing phase….
weary and exhausted, these eyes skyward i lift..
The skies tell the same story that they told me ages ago…..
Nothing is eternal…
it is all but a passing phase…
and yet I toil…day after day…
to live this life…
that thousands before me have lived….
only to go one day…
the way, thousands before me have gone…..

Hi friends….good evening to all……this is just a way to vent out your short thinking /frustration……….I confess it loud and clear that I am luckiest of the lot that I have you…all with me……
A friend and shoulder to lean on…………..not to cry…….my share of tears are already rolled down my cheeks………………..
This is just some scribbling...wanna share it with you………..my family……my world……thankyou all

Weary and exhausted…these eyes skyward I lift….



my mind teems with questions…….
when, where, how…why…????
As though somewhere in its womb...
the sky holds all the answers …
the same timeless, ageless questions…..
A hundred times have I sought to unravel...
these mysteries that so shroud my mind…
why am i here..????
Where do I go from here…???
Why do I live and breathe…
the same life that thousands before me have lived….
the same deaths that thousands before me have died….
why do I feel??/
the same feelings that thousands before me have felt
feelings of joy …
feelings of pain…
elation one day…
anguish another ….
We win some...
we lose some…
today i laugh…
tomorrow i weep…
one moment i am in love with life...
another moment i wish nothing more than to die…
the wisdom of the sages..
The foolishness of the simpletons….
the heights of ecstasy…
the depths of despair...
the innumerous achievements of mankind...
coupled with all its failings …
does’nt everything come to naught
in one sweeping moment of realization…
that evrything is but a passing phase….
weary and exhausted, these eyes skyward i lift..
The skies tell the same story that they told me ages ago…..
Nothing is eternal…
it is all but a passing phase…
and yet I toil…day after day…
to live this life…
that thousands before me have lived….
only to go one day…
the way, thousands before me have gone…..

This small piece is dedicated to the person who taught me how to live in a better way and loved me selflessly.

On my last birthday he presented me with a diary to write about my experiences which he was sure were going to be wonderful in the coming year, (as the previous one was bitter in many ways.
So I write....)
The sufferings have only aggravated but in different way. The person i.e. my best friend for 37 years, who laughed and cried with me, was tensed with my little worries, always offering comforting words, who was more concerned about me than himself, who sacrificed many things just to make me feel better, who would rather hurt himself than hurting me, who just wanted to be with me is very far from me!!!!!!.khuda ka farmaan aa gaya beech meh

TILL THE TIME This SWEET ANGEL WAS THERE HE BOOSTED up my life, but I could not make much out of it…As I was busy in my own wonderland………….
It is said u realize the value of a person more when that person is not with you...
same here...though I long to have him back in my life.
I am aware that what I want is’nt possible, even then I long for that!!!!!!! off late I have accepted that Pa has played his part and now it’s my turn to act, to display and do the honest justice with life magar phir bhi wof andheri galiyan aapni jumbish ki aazmaaish karti rehti hai mere sath!!!!!!
Ye numaya hai.ptaa hai mujhe ki gar mai haarta hoon toh .mushkil ho jayegi…………..magar.nothing stops. No one accompany the death…………………
I have to come back to the reality and meet up with what is meant for me……….

As I take awhile by the River side in the middle of the night
Well probably in the wee morning hours of 2am... the silence
some how felt comforting.
The cool air and the smell of the Jasmine were freshening.
But deep inside... I'm just very exhausted.
For weeks and weeks, tearing apart my brains to multi task has really been
not only stressful, it's been quite damaging actually.
I end up having sleepless nights with many tossing and turnings, and
the pressure build up to get all the stuff done in the choke.
Yet various fronts I'm fighting to keep together and many things buzzing my
brains out through my ears...

It's a new dawn upon the company that I am somehow that very person to bring in the
potentials of the company to the next level, even amid this recession. Both input and
output the same….. Finding niche arenas and building the new and strong foundation that is there
with the 26 years of age that the company has survived...

Designing new platforms in which a product can start reaching out………… As earlier it was all Pa’s handling area, and then comes the educating the work force to do all that in my way now
Being a one man team to re-build each and every marketing effort there is in the company....
All these....really all these have been just shoved in and made as a daily norm.... Madness....
which sane person can do all these alone, with the normal working hours and 5/6 days a week? Is’nt it Crazy???....
Daily checks of everybody's inbound process issues.on the shopfloor.& then.. letters, orders, emails, contracts......blah blah
damn what have you..done to yourself..this is what I ask me!!!!!!!!…………..
I'm like working with my hands filled with rubber smell and chemical every other day until I get sick of doing it



All to a point where I'd just see a big list of requirement in front of me and I crush it and dump in the bin.……..{but again!!! come to think of it…..do I have any other option??????}
I actually hit a point where I'd even do it to my client’s letters.

Then comes the Worry about honey's(kids) studies and their changed environment(before we use to live separately) with all the new development I'm hearing...and all the things that
I hear.... Need to find a solution to that and find yet another solution. The worries actually end up becoming
assisting and being a part of the process..both at home and work area
AND you can't really comment much which might have the possibility of giving added stress or pressure...CAN YOU???

White hair growing exponentially, with all the load of stuff with little time, which constant pressurizing humming
and the lack of sleep...
IT leave me , wondering if she listen & comes to know the things I've been going through.(I WISH THAT SHE IS’NT AWARE)....
Today was like everyday was a rush was exhausting and with every step taken has been just to hopefully settle things down with life
......
I think my aggression and temper has simmered quite a bit through all these times.... the shot gun rage has been controlled
pretty much....
The reach to understand and embrace the situation of others has become more forthcoming....
But the returns to be not taken for granted are still in question.....
That's why my sense of consciousness returns back to where I am....gazen at the river, these wee hours in the morning
clicking to vent.
Working out has yet become my point of letting go, but to the point of my being tired to the extreme....

What else is there to do? I am still being hit with the same question??
and i started walking back in my room...

Amazing but true.... How you get undressed reveals your personality.


1) If you throw your clothes all over the place, you are a friendly, life-of-the- party type. You are free with your thoughts and opinions, not caring much about what others think of you. Your parents might think your room looks like a cyclone hit it? But it actually represents your happy, individualistic nature!


2) If you remove each piece of clothing and put it away carefully, you are a serious person who likes her life to be very calm. You are comfortable with routine, and you believe that the best way to deal with life's problems is to prevent them in the first place. You are a perfectionist. By nature you are quite shy. You are observant and you know more about some people than they think, just because you've watched them. You are dependable and sometimes intense. You think carefully before making decisions. You go about your tasks methodically, with concentration. You know how to pay attention.


3) If you take off the shirt, and ten minutes later get around to the pants, you are an extremely self-confident person. You are naturally bright and intellectual. You are also a deep thinker who loves to ask questions and ponder the meaning of things. You hate being rushed and you do not like to be hassled. Usually you like a lot of free time for yourself.


4) If you get out of your clothes as quickly as possible, you are concerned about others and what they expect from you, but you're worried about your own needs. You are family-oriented, and stay extremely busy. You often feel stressed, but most of those heavy expectations come from your own head! Give yourself a break; you don't have to be perfect.


5) If you take off your rings, earrings, necklace, watch, etcetera before anything else, you are a warm and sensitive person. You are considerate and thoughtful, and you give good advice to your friends. You are a natural born romantic.


6) If you don't have an undressing routine and you never do it the same way twice, you are a very curious and interesting person. You enjoy a broad range of activities. You take risks and enjoy fun and adventure. You are very social.


Friends please select your type. And share with us all. As we should know about our friends………………loll
I am number…….6

Deepawali is a festival of light epitomizing the victory of devoutness and removing of the spiritual darkness. It solemnizes the victory of good over evil and the eminence of light. This festival commemorates Lord Rama's return to his kingdom Ayodhya after completing his 14-year exile. this is something that we all know...if not in our schools then definately we have heard it all in Ramlilas

BUT now the time has come to listen and follow the teachings of MARYADA PURSHOUTTAM SHREE BHAGWAN RAM
yes friends we have to achive victory on this evil..the evil who is threatining all of us and ITS A THREAT to our Generation to come..................and this danger is
THE POLLUTION & belive me this evil has umpteen numbers of head..........polluting everything on earth...our own MOTHER EARTH


Diwali, the festival of vitality is one of the most ravishing among the Festivals IN OUR COUNTRIY...ITcomes 21 days after Dussehra. & celebrated with myriad flickering oil lamps and lights called Diyas,and thanks to many ms friends I don’t need to buy them this time……..lol…. Diyas are arranged around the home, in courtyards, verandahs, and gardens, as well as on rooftops and outer walls….[This time it won’t happen in our house, as my Pa passed away this year]….but the life must go on and so the celebration of the festival………..all the very best to all my fellow countrymen
The joy of this celebration is customarily convoy by the exchange of sweets and the busting of fireworks. SO WHY CAN'NT WE LIMIT TO THE BURSTING OF CRACKERS....I MEAN WE ARE HAPPY WE ARE CELEBRATING..THERE ARE SO MANY WAYS TO SHOW IT................i AM SORRY BUT IS IT WORTH IT.............FOR A MOMENT OF LIGHTING IN THE SKY..WE ARE CREATING A DENT IN IT.BY SMOKE............
Lakshmi, the Goddess of wealth and prosperity is worshiped by lighting lamps; it is a way of paying obeisance to Goddess for acquirement of health, wealth, enlightenment, amity, valor and glory. BUT AGAIN THIS EVIL IS SHOOING US TOWARDS DEVASTATED HEALTH and then our wealth goes into medication.....Mata Lakshmi ka vahan kamal pushp(LOTUS) hai....kya woh bachaga iss pollution se....?


Diwali manifest numerous things to people all over the country. In north India, Diwali is celebrated to mark the occasion of Rama’s homecoming, his return to Ayodhya after a long exile of 14 years along with brother Lakshman and Sita, after defeating Ravana.

Gujarat, the festival is dedicated to Lakshmi, Godess of wealth and prosperity, is also the beginning of the new financial year.
Bengal, it is associated with the goddess Kali or Durga and it evinces the regeneration of spirit and life. People wear new clothes on the day of the festival, similarly it harbinger the approach of winter and the beginning of the sowing season.


Diwali is a time for fun and festivity. It is also a time for performing rituals and worshiping god and goddess. Homes are embellished, sweets are distributed by everyone and thousands of lamps lit to create a world of chimera. The children can be seen bursting firecrackers and lighting candles or earthen lamps, but fiends as we all know {thanks to media n science}...that the amount of the pollution being released by these crackers is going to create yet another blow to our already destroyed climatic condition…..so today here I will use this platform to request to all that please minimize the use of the crackers. As pollution is killing our mother earth …lets save her for our own children & their future


Let us all stand shoulder to shoulder aur Ahad(PLEDGE) kare ki hum aapne bachcho ko ek khushgawar zameen de kar jayege…………..
& why not we got it from our fore fathers………….can we deny this?


HAPPY DEEPAWALI TO ALL………………
and please pardon me if i have written something wrong...................

Shukriya Syd... for your thought provking diary Dost
It made me post this....................

Jhanjharpur....aur whatever but..something strange had happened with our family "MS".....
Although i am just few months old here so can't say anything with full faith but.i have this feeling,as mentioned by you in points
(1) Plain fatigue ? Cant believe everybody is tired at the same time.{I ditto you on this }
(5) That we are scared of the changing face ? Maybe, it may no longer be a closed group of people and there may be inertia against newcomers...{may be}
there could be umpteen number of reasons but at the end of it all.we ll be like oh dear god please revive this save the planet……………planet mouthshut



this is when,the willow weeps.
Crying tears for seasons past,
Autumn season
Growing colder
As the earth
Is getting colder.
Dying, dying,
Passing on,
Wondering where
The time has gone.
Plants are tired,
Time to sleep,
Autumn is over,
It's winter at last
At long last
Insha-allaha

All at once
The wind is blowing
Suddenly it’s all showing
What the thunder had announced!!!!!!!
The flood waters
Are ready to come down Ounce by ounce.........................
.....................




I always here the thunder before the rain,
Before each time my disguise is put to shame,
Before each flood makes me lame................
I always hear the thunder before the rain..........................
..


The scent of the shower
Burning through my skin
Exposing all to what’s within..............
The water that looks so powerless
Cuts like razor edged tin..........
I always hear the thunder before the rain



I always see the sky grow dark
And then I’m boxed in........................
The storm searches me out with thunderous barks
No escape there for me As nothingness starts to scrape in me


Against what’s left of my hope..........................

As the air becomes to wet to breathe
Suffocating me like rope..........................

I never think to get away..
I always wish to stay.......!!!














I always hear the thunder before the rain.
I always experience the after math.
And shaming pain… I always hear the thunder before the rain

I convince myself that it will all be fine
I end up with the ruins of my life..........................
........ and its fading away.....................
In what lasts of my sunshine
Burying myself in ashes off my happiness!!!!!

ory I

E: Do u have a boyfriend?
C: I have.
E: Is he working Locally?
C: No. He is working Overseas.
E: Sorry, my company cannot employ u !
C: Why?
E: U will not be able to settle down here permanently. And my Company don't
want to pay extra expenses on the Overseas calls just because of u.


Story II

E: Any girl friends?
C: No.
E: So far chased any before?
C: Have, but not successful.
E: Ever think of getting a job first then start looking for a girlfriend?
C: Career is first priority. Currently didn't want to consider This personal
issue.
E: Sorry, my company cannot employ u.
C: Why?
E: You are lacking of P.R skills and confidence!!



Story III

E: Any girlfriends?
C: Yes.
E: Is she pretty?
C: Not quite.
E: Sorry, my company cannot employ you.
C: Why? Will this affect your company's reputation?
E: No, it does not affect the company's reputation but because My company is
dealing with arts, our company requested an artist.


Story IV


E: Any girlfriends?
C: Yes.
E: Is she pretty?
C: yes
E: Is she your first lover?
C: Yes.
E: Sorry, we can't employ you because you lack of fighting spirit.



Story V


E: Any girlfriends?
C: Yes.
E: Is she your first lover?
C: No. Have a few already.
E: Sorry, my company cannot employ you because you are a "grasshopper" ! (Job
hoper lah!)



Story VI

E: Any boyfriends?
C: Yes.
E: Is he rich?
C: No.
E: Then sorry, my company cannot employ you because our Company is dealing
with money and you will seduce.


Story VII

E: Any boyfriends?
C: Yes.
E: Is he rich ?
C: Yes, very rich.He owns a company.
E: Sorry, we cannot employ you because your boyfriend don't Even want to
employ you, neither do we!
C: But,...... there is no position in his company.
E: Then,..... what is your qualification?
C: Secretary!
E: Sorry, we still cannot employ you because your prettiness Will affect
your managers' working spirits.
C: But,...... I am not pretty at all.
E: It is even worse because my managers will not be interested In you!!