I happen to watch a you tube video and i was shocked to see such talent in a young girl. It brought tears into my eyes as i saw her work on plain sand.It was like a movie unfolding scene by scene right from starry night to a pregnant women and how the child grows and then becomes a young man who in turn is an artist ready to paint. God must surely has painting this world this way i felt as i saw her creating characters in sand. The moment her hands worked on the sand i forgot it was sand anymore. She is no ordinary women. She has some divinity in her which makes her work the way she does with 0% effort. The figures just flows from her hands. I am amazed and have no words to express how i feel...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=
8yYcEX5O5a4&NR=1

My recent readings of books on self help has really left me high and dry. It did boost my mind a lot and made me dream big, bigger, biggest and now here i am waiting for it to materialize.

How was i putting up before these dreams and visualization - very self contented, but with a small pinch inside that i wasn't doing anything worthwhile in life.

How am i now - filled up and ready to burst with all my wild dreams and ideas to stretch my wings and fly very high...

you can guess why i named my company Vings Network. Lets say its my dream company for now as i am still planning, dreaming and hoping for some great miracle or a Godly angel to just drop it in my lap or on my table. Everything said and done i am really questioning about this SECRET LAW OF ATTRACTION and other manuals for self improvement and attracting abundant wealth. Wow how easy they all seem to me, while reading of course. But reality bites as usual,fears, doubts and anxieties cloud the mind and to top it all FINANCE.

This makes me wonder whether i should do anything at all with my life.For what/whom/why??? so many questions but very few answers. Life is a game people say, if everyone is gonna play who is gonna watch the game. I wish i could relax with a big bowl of popcorn and coke and watch the games people play. Still i wonder whether we are all just watching as i don't see anyone play the game as a game. I know this sounds philosophical still Life has to go on, whether it is game or sport or mystery.It takes its own course with or without our personal efforts and all i find wise to do is to just sit back, relax and wait for EVERYTHING BIG AND BEAUTIFUL/BOUNTIFUL

I just finished reading this book called , REINVENTING YOURSELF", and the author Steve Chandler was pointing out how watching TV news channels was making our minds feel down and frustrated. It definitely is i feel, because all we see in it is either hyped or true details morphed just to keep the viewer from hitting his remote.T he news readers look like models and its very obvious that they dont have any connection with the news they read. i wish i could test them by asking about what they read just now.

Even the newspapers carry stories which is of very little importance to the reader or the society. I wonder who really benefits from reading the gossip columns and the Pub clipings. not that there is nothing worth reading, i always read my star sign in the astrology column every night. just to have a hearty laugh of what didnt happen according to the prediction. See it really benefits my heart as it is too comical and it gives me a good hearty laugh.

violence, deaths, accidents, drug trafficking, political drama etc rule the sheets rather than some success stories, true human courage, some thoughts on the upliftment of the society etc. The news about the ban of the book by Jaswant singh is actually benefiting him more than the people who is going to read it. the kind of marketing techniques these people use to market their books amazes me.

all said and done, lets not think about this too much, as i feel it is going to make us very contemplative and gloomy. lets just unwind and have a great day ahead.. cheers

A burglar decided to rob the safe in a store.

On the safe door he was very pleased to find a note reading: "Please don't use dynamite. The safe is not locked. Just turn the knob."

He did so. Instantly a heavy sandbag fell on him, the entire premises were floodlighted, and alarms started clanging.

As the police carried him out on a stretcher, he was heard moaning: "My confidence in human nature has been rudely shaken."

I try to write something or atleast comment i just get carried on... maybe i am getting too lazy or is it the dreaded writers block.. huh

Anyway i made up my mind to drown it all down and share with you something which is of great interest to me recently..

What is it? Certain things just happen in life without our effort, intention or desire.. Just out of the blue u meet people, see things, things just happen FOR NO REASON.

I went to a library to get books to read..i saw this book with the title " everything happens for a reason", I took that book. Really liked the story as it was about a normal Indian women after her marriage.

Somehow life has become monotonous and boring and i was like trying to spice up a bit here and there. Then i happen to visit an ashram and there was video show going on and i went and sat there and watched the movie SECRET. Many must have read the book, and i have read it too. But was so impressed by the visuals and the real interaction with great masters and philosophers.

LAW OF ATTRACTION... does it really work as they say it will.. now my mind is clouded with so many versios of ifs, whats and hows.. we have here in India a particular mind set of total surrender and God is the master planner etc and so to accept the fact that we create the world with our own thoughts is a bit hard on the head. trying to read the book again or maybe get that dvd and see it again and again...anyone here ever experienced or is trying this SECRET THING :-)

I felt ashamed at my insensitiveness and decided o take up the blame for failing to inculcate the spirit of patriotism in my children’s mind even when they were young. Even now I am encouraging them to study well only to get a placement abroad and not to help others here and to build a better nation. I was shocked at the total disaster we as parents were creating in the minds of our kids in the name of better jobs and foreign citizenship. At least I was little consoled by the fact that I was not the only mother doing this, at the same time worried about the out come of this seed being planted in the minds of the youth of today in the future.



When we ourselves don’t have the concern to build a better India how can we create a youth force which will have to safeguard and develop India in the future. How can we inculcate the great Indian dream in the young minds without changing OUR attitude towards the nation. Our generation should change first to show by personal example that we do care for the nation, its development, for its safety, its cleanliness, and natural resources. How many of us really cared to clean up the garbage piled up next to our house. Don’t we think that the front gate is our boundary line and anything after that is public property. Why don’t we start with the extension of our boundary line, first outside our gates.



Imagine what a difference it will make when we all clean up that little area around our house. When our children see this will they not be inspired to extend it further in and around their schools. In other countries people do community service voluntarily and in America people are punished for minor crimes by attributing community service for a period of time. why don’t we start something like that. we can form small communities area wise or in every street and offer help to that communities hospitals, schools and temples. Its not a one man’s job considering the fact that these services had been neglected for decades. We need not go out of the way to do this full time, at least let us spare a portion of our free time if not all. India has opened its doors wide open to so many diversified cultures, religions and traditions, why don’t we open ourselves to do just a small community service not only to help India grow but also to create a good inspiration for our children.. Why don’t we start this new year with this resolved resolution .
why don’t I start it in my life first I thought before sending in this message, as I was damn sure that what cannot be followed cannot be preached. With much clarity and overwhelming patriotic thoughts I further thought of ways and means to bring about national integration into my family first. First I decided to collect biographies of our national leaders whose life breathed patriotism, as I believe in the words ‘history repeats itself’. Maybe their life’s would inspire at least one of us or someone who visited us, so my next plan was to prepare pamphlets about them and their words of wisdom and stick them up in the wall which was otherwise filled with calendars and scenery from European countries. I am also thinking of collecting some nice pictures depicting our natural richness and splendor to make greeting cards to be sent on special occasions for our friends and foes.



I made up my mind to see to it that I don’t throw garbage anywhere and everywhere, so I decided to get a garbage bin in which couple of house near me can also use to throw their waste. I remembered the phrase I read in a book about new year resolutions, ‘A year from now you will wish you had started today’, fearing the worst I decided not to wait for the new year to start my work, as I had long lost all belief in making resolution only for the day never to be followed. I also read somewhere that “to think too long about doing a thing often becomes its undoing”, Here I come Mother India, you have long awaited for your dear daughter to mature enough to help you and nurture you, as a token of my newly gained regards for the nation I stood up and paid my respects and devotion to our “Bharath Matha’ hoping and praying for my success and all those who wish to follow suit. Jai kind.



PS: this article was published in the month of jan last year in EVES TOUCH magazine And thankyou all for being patient enough to have come this far to the second part as well...

As I was serving breakfast to my husband one day, we overheard our national anthem from the nearby school, probably to denote the end of their morning assembly . My husband suddenly got up from his seat and stood in attention while I was comfortably seated opposite him wondering how I should react to this. My small pet dog seeing the sudden change in moments came from under the table with his head held high looking at my otherwise motionless husband whose sudden commotion disturbed his sleep. My first thought was that even a dog responds to the national anthem , look at me sitting with legs crossed ,eyes wide open with a villainy crooked look just as the Bollywood villains response to the actions of the “munna bhai”.



My egoistic mind stretched out its ugly horns justifying my act saying that I need not get up and show off my patriotism , it was always there,(don’t ask me where). I thought I should seriously evaluate myself as to why I was not as responsible or responsive as my husband was and to also why I couldn’t follow suit at least after he stood up. I remembered one friend of mine who would also stand up wherever she was, be it the common place or the class room, not caring what other people might think or comment. Naturally she was the target of all the girls who would make fun and call her flag bearer of India. She never rebuked or really took our comments seriously, as long as I knew her she was the same.
My thoughts then roamed about to distant USA and England which up to date had given more importance to build and sustain its national integration by giving and inculcating values about their history, culture and its leaders in the thoughts of the young minds. India has everything to be proud of from the Vedas to mahatma Gandhi, the list of geniuses in math’s, astrology , science and spirituality is insurmountable. But do we nurture this richness, are we really proud to be an Indian. Few years back if you were to ask a child what he wanted to be in his future, his reply would be, an IAS or IPS or teacher, or maybe an engineer or doctor. But today ask a kid what he wish to be, his answer would be that he wishes to study and go to America or Australia. Just look at the irony he will finish school and even graduation here in India and go abroad in the name of higher education and settle down there with a green card only to transform his generations to come as Americans. I had always listed them as hypo crates. Even back home, we see youth of today with amusing outfits having the American flag or the British donning their hats, shirts even trousers and scarf’s. Not to mention the helmets and goggles.



Why are we allowing our self to be westernized when there’s so much to be proud of in our motherland. Our Indian embroidery is hot fashion in the western countries now, only next to our rich art and scriptures. There’s even a vedic university where people do research on Vedas, epics and Vedanta. Our dirty streets, garbage piles and polluted water bodies show how much we all care leave alone the politicians for our neighborhood. Many Indians awaiting their green cards do community work to improve their scores for the availability of their citizenship abroad.



It so easy to point out fingers at others forgetting the basic fact that the other three fingers points towards you.. I reminded myself as I came back to my present situation where I personified myself as the ‘bad guy’ with no respect for the national anthem. As scores of guilt and shame shadowed my mind I thought how my kids could have reacted to all this. I remembered the Tamil saying ‘thayai pole pillai nullai pole chelae’ there was no doubt as to their reaction and the whole reality dawned on me as to how my actions can teach my children good or bad values about any kind of behavior including patriotism. If I were to stand up at every hearing of the national anthem my kids would have got the message even when they were small .



(cotinued as next post as it is more than 5000 charecters lol ) so please leave ur comments there only :)

Travelling through the busy city streets i look out and see so many busybees going to and fro, either to work or headed for their homes. Almost everyother person connected to his head phone or his ears plugged into his cell phone. Always listening to the FM stations or talking to someone forgetfull of the whole atmosphere or whereabouts. while walking, driving and even sleeping people are fully loaded with the gizmos and technology. Do they really realise how dreadfully disastrous it is to be always connected to the radioactive waves? Leave alone the physical threat do they ever know what silence is? Are they aware of the great potential silence has? If only they could switch off their gadgets and sit in a silent corner, close their eyes and switch over into their own true self.........

Last night i posted a mobile message about the musical called MAMAMIA, in chennai. To give a brief of what it is please follow the link. http://www.hindu.com/mp/2009/0
6/27/stories/2009062750950800.h
tm .It was my lucky day i should say as i got to get one single ticket at the last moment for the first show. Not ending there i got the opportunity to go on stage and dance with the participants for the ABBA song, Dancing Queen. It was a mind blowing expeirence. This was my first LIVE experience of a musical. Total entertainment is what i did go through last night totally unwinding myself (as i was alone :), atleast i didnt bother about what my kids could think or my hubby would howl) hope it doesnt attract media attraction with my face blarring on it to get the needed reaction like a hangover. But then who cares the joy that i had and the fun and the great musical experience is so huge.
Many of us like to go to concerts or music shows, but then we are hesitant to show off our appreciation or even tap our feets always cnscious of others reaction rather than our own joy. this doesnt mean one can stand up and create a nuisance for all around. but then the purpose for an entertainment to entertain the crowd is attained only when the performers see the audience enjoying and clapping to their beats or humor. enjoying our presence at the same time not being a nuisance to others we can really unwind our stress a great deal. sitting tight lipped with folded hands all through a comic bit totally conscious only about the reactions of others not mindful of the show for which you have paid isnt the right attitude. Dont you think so ... forgive me guys i think i am trying to defend my actions last night hehehe ( thats Indian Attitude i guess)

The kind of life MJ lived is a shocking example of how people are money and power crazy. Just to change the skin color he had undergone so many plastic surgeries and today's newspaper reveal the raw truth about the type of lifeless life that MJ was living. Why should he choose to live such a painful and false life without being natural, without eating what he wants, without being just AS HE WAS. This shows that he was a confused soul not very comfortable about himself. Definitely he should have gone through self inflicted pain and suffering hoping to BE HAPPY. Because whatever we do ultimately is dont with view of being happy. we earn money to get things for our comfort, and we need to be comfortable to be happy.
If we strip every aspect of our actions the ultimate answer in every ones mind is HAPPINESS. This happiness drive makes man crazy and he searches for it in all the wrong places. If the skin color had made MJ happy then he should have stopped at that. Are every fair skinned people happy? did he ever think about this? if being thin or taking just pills for his meals make him happy? Does the million dollar estates give him the happiness he craved for? Did he atleast acheive his goal in life? well, what was his goal in life and what did he expect to teach the world and his countless fans through his living?
He is the greatest Icon no doubt for millions, but then did he think his figure and his suffering behind his physical presence would have made his fans any happier. would they have left him or dumped him if he was otherwise? did he misunderstand his fans appreciation for his music and took it personal? so many confused questions is what he has left back for us to ponder. Everyone should start thinking deeply about the meaning of life and MJ 's life is what we can take as an example and start living life not for others, but for our own joy and happiness. If we cannot make ourselves happy NO ONE can. If we dont like our body or our feature then who will. self love and self appreciation is very imperative quality and a basic necessity to take us to happiness.
***BE AS YOU ARE***